Life Update/New Goals

Things have finally gotten better thank heavens. I've got school sorted out, and everything else is slowly falling back into place. (:

You know, I can't tell you how many times I've changed my mind about what I wanted to be when I'm older. Lately it's been a path with the WWE, but it's changed yet again. I'm torn between WWE, Rodeo, or Stand Up Comedian...again. I'm sure I will figure this out eventually, but until then all I know is I want a job where I entertain. Make people laugh, and give them something to watch. That's the kind of job I want. One where I can travel everywhere, doing what I love, and giving people a show.

As for any gym news, it's nothing good. I've slacked off so much the past two weeks. Last week we went Monday, but the rest of the week was filled with rodeo. And everyone's been sick all this week so we haven't gone at all. I've turned into quite the pig lol. I've only had one soda though, and that was last Wednesday. It's been nothing but green tea and water since then. I promise I'm going to hit the gym hard next week.

I've also set a new goal for myself. I want to be down 25-30lbs by the end of July. I know it may not seem like much, but it's a start. Every pound down is a good thing. I want to lose as much weight as I possibly can before the county fair. (cowboys hello lol) And since I didn't meet my goal I set at the beginning of the year I'm determined to make this one happen.

When you set a goal in anything, and accomplish it...it's the best feeling in the whole world. You feel like you can take on the world. So just remember when you're sitting there at the computer all day when there's something you desire to do....get up and do it. You never know when your time will come so live the moment, man.

Until next time.
SMR

Status: Broken

I honestly have nothing good to say at this point in my life. Everything is going to hell again. This whole year so far has been nothing but hell. Honestly, the only good thing that has happened was when I got to go to Portland. Monday Night Raw, and meeting John Cena are the greatest thing to happen this year. I NEED this school year to end, right now. I NEED this year to get better. That's all I'm saying.

I just wanted to post this to let whoever reads this know I'm going through some super rough times right now. So I may not post any new blog posts on here. I'm sure I'll still be complaining on Twitter and Tumblr, but if I don't post on here, fear not! I am still alive.

Just remember something.

NEVER GIVE UP.

Dinner Talks and Thoughts

I want to say this right now before you continue reading. These are not all my thoughts on the whole same sex relationships. I have a lot more of opionons, but felt like I should get off the topic before I say something someone wouldn't take kindly to. And here's a warning as well. This does contain thoughts about God, if that may offend you, I am sorry. Skip to the last part of the paragraph if you must, or don't read at all. Feel free to voice your thoughts, but keep them nice. Thanks.

I finally made it over to my dad's house yesterday. It's been a while since I've just gone over there to visit and chill with the family. It was nice to see the step-sisters and my lovely step-mother. And of course the amazing dinner she made. Man that was a good meal to have after a workout. Chicken, green beans, and mashed potatoes. I was in heaven. But, even though the food was great, something else made me feel even better, and it's what we talked about after dinner. It was just us girls sitting around the table, dad was hiding out in the other room feeling sick, so we all just talked.
Some how we got on the topic of gays and lesbians. I think we were talking about Rick Santorum before and it lead to this conversation. My step-mom said that she actually liked having gay people as friends. She said that they were almost better than most straight people she knew. And we both agreed that it was perfectly okay to be gay. And it is. Whether you love the opposite sex, or the same sex...LOVE IS LOVE. I wish people would get this.

I honestly do not see the big deal in this topic. So what if it goes against something in the bible, or something in your believes? God didn't create us, just to condemn us for loving someone. He created us so that we may live among this beautiful world, have lives, have jobs, have loves...of ANY kind. I HIGHLY doubt God is going to let someone rot in the pits of hell because they loved someone of the same sex. All I'm saying is that God loves us no matter who we love. Why do I think this? Because I honestly do not think that ANY human/God would be that low about love, and life. We were not created to mingle around and all be the same people, and love the same gender. No. We were created to discover, to evolve, to become unique individuals. Not the same grey suit wearing copies of each other. So just go out there and LOVE WHOEVER YOU FREAKING WANT. Haters can kiss your ass.

I think what made me so happy about hearing my step-mom saying she was fine with gays and that there's nothing wrong with it. Is just that, exactly what she said. It makes me so happy to know she's fine with it. She's cool with them. As for my step-sisters, they didn't say much, but then again their real father is a VERY VERY strict Mormon, so it's expected they don't comment on that subject.

Now, I'm going to talk about something else before I get too heated about the subject. I just hope my point was made.

Another thing my step-mom and sisters made me happy about, was the feeling they would actually support my dreams. We were talking about wrestling. (Man we have deep conversations over dinner..) And I mentioned something to my step-sister about me being a wrestler/diva/whatever you wanna call it, and my step-mom said: "Yeah, what would you do when she's on Monday Night Raw and me and Danny go to watch her and leave you behind."
Why does that comment make me feel so happy? Just the fact that they would actually come watch. I mean, I'm sure my mother would too, but she never seems to happy when I bring the subject up. It just makes me feel like my step-mother and sisters would support me more than my mother and grandmother would. I mean, lets face it, it's not a very good dream to chase. I'd be gone a lot, hurt, gone a lot, hurt, and there's the chance I'm not good enough. But I'm willing to go after it because I feel that strongly about it. I just wish I felt like I had more support. Either way I'm going after this, whether anybody cares enough or not. A dream is a dream, and I refuse to let this one pass by unless I physically can not compete.

After my step-mom said that, I hit my sister with: "And what if I went to Wrestlemania?" She said she'd beg to go with me. Ya'know, she may be 13 and turning into a "diva" but I love her.

I guess all in all, love who you want to, and chase your dreams no matter what.

Until next time. Stay nice, stay beautiful, and don't forget to write notes on your wrist! xP

Random Post Is Random

I'm addicted to the gym. This is a good thing. It's better than all the other things I could be addicted to, plus this addiction is helping me out. Lol.

So, not much new has happened really. I've been trying to film the next episode of Ask The Sage for days now, but I can't get it done. I wasn't in the mood to try, then when I did film it Youtube wouldn't upload it because it was too long. So that's still in the works. I'd like to make other Youtube videos as well, other than answering questions. Like gameplay commentary, or skits, or maybe just little vlogs. If I did vlogs it wouldn't be an every day thing though, just like every other day or something. But I would really like to get some other things going with Youtube. I just need to teach myself how to edit videos.

School has gotten much better. I just need to race to finish my classes before the end of the year hits. If all else fails I may have to take a couple classes in summer school. I'm honestly really torn about what to do after summer's over. I want to return back to the public school, but at the same time I want to stay home schooled. The benefits of being home schooled like I am, is it's flexible. If I need to take days off, then I can. I have the freedom to work at my own pace, and to move ahead of the class if I'd like. That and I don't get sick as much. But the downside of this all is I miss my friends, and I become lazy because I'm home all the time. The only real reason I want to even go back to public school is just for the socialization of it to be honest. I miss my friends I saw every day. Who knows what I'll do, I just hope whatever I decided it's going to work for me, I'm tired of school drama.

Something has happened to a close family friend of ours, and it's really opened my eyes up about several things. We all need to just live our lives out to the fullest, each and every day. Life is such a fragile thing in this big world of ours, and can be taken away at any moment without warning. Why waste your time worried about the end, when you can grab this moment by the horns and go? And remember to tell your friends and family you love them whenever you see them, you just never know when something may take that chance away from you. I know it's a sad thought, but some people need to try it.

This is mostly a random post, as nothing new has happened, so I apologize if I'm ranting. I'm currently listening to Party Rock Anthem. Every Day I'm Musclin'! WWWYKI

I think for the next post, if anyone would want to read something like it, I'm going to talk/ramble about my dreams and jobs I'd like to have. Just a life post basically, talking about my unrealistic crazy dreams of my that I have and will end up chasing. I've also thought about maybe doing a fitness post like once a week or something. Just a post where I talk about my workouts, how long, how many reps, and the things I eat/drink to replace the not so good food items. And my weight and size updates. Do like a weekly weight in. Just to track my progress and maybe inspire a few people to sign up for their local gym or something. I'm not sure though.

But anysmores, this has been a random post. Mainly because it's late and no one is online....and I felt like rambling about stuff.

Update/Gym Playlist (Random)

I figured I should post a little something on here, whether it be random or not. So I thought I'd drop an update about my life, and put my gym playlist....in case anyone wants to know what gets me going at the gym.

As some of you know, assuming those people are reading this, I signed up with the gym and have been going for a few weeks now. And I honestly couldn't feel any better. There's just something about going to the gym that not only helps your body out, but helps your mood out. Trust me you can go to the gym feeling completely pissed, or not happy about being there, but when you leave you'll feel 100x better. You may be sore, but your mood changes and it's great. My energy has gone up, I'm a little more happier about things, and I no longer look at the gym as an enemy that'll make me hate them. In fact the gym is becoming my second home.

Weightloss on the other hand, isn't very great. I don't have any set diet, I just watch what I eat and don't eat as much. I've cut pop out to at least 1 a week or every other week. I keep it down to water, powerade, Gatorade, V8 drinks, and vitamin water. (With the occasional tea) But my weight, according to the scale, has only dropped 2lbs and gone up 2lbs or more. So I'm either losing and gaining, or losing fat and building muscle. I'll go with the muscle option. I can't give up my favorite foods for a diet...I just can't. lol

School has been going okay. We've finally figured something out for me, now if they could just get it together and get this program running I should be able to finish the year with only taking a little summer school. It's a bummer to have that planned out over my summer, but I want to be in the same grade as the rest of my friends. Other than that, I have nothing else to say about school. Other then this year has been BS with this home schooling program.

Now on to my playlist.

Sage's Gym Playlist:

1. Say It To My Face (Alex Riley's entrance music)
2. The Time Is Now (John Cena's entrance music)
3. Don't F*ck With Us (John Cena & Tha Trademarc)
4. Bad, Bad Man (John Cena, Tha Trademarc ft. Bumby Knuckles)
5. Invincible (MGK ft. Ester Dean)
6. Dark Horses (Switchfoot)
7. Good Feeling (Flo Rida)
8. The Pretender (Foo Fighters)
9. Fight (Oleander ft. Urijah Faber)
   
10. Remember The Name (Fort Minor ft. Styles Of Beyond)
    
11. Martyr No More (Fozzy)
12. Let The Madness Begin (Fozzy)
13. Stronger (Kanye West)
14. Rollin' 'Air Raid Vechile' (Limp Bizkit)
15. Bleed It Out (Linkin Park)
16. Enter Sandman (Metallica)
    
17. I Don't Wanna Stop (Ozzy Osbourne)
    
18. Headstrong (Trapt)
19. Let It Rock (Kevin Rudolph & Lil Wayne)
20. Welcome To The World (Kevin Rudolph & Rick Ross)
21. I Made It 'Cash Money Heros' (Kevin Rudolph, Birdman, Jay Sean, & Lil Wayne)
22. Broken, Beat & Scarred (Metallica)
23. All Nightmare Long (Metallica)
24. God Pounds His Nails (Fozzy)

Obviously I love the shuffle option...
Is almost 30 songs too much? Oh well. xD

The Raw Experience

I'm writing this because I want my memories wrote down on a blog I haven't even used in months, and a lot of my friends on Twitter wanted to know things. I didn't have the time on my dying phone to answer to everyone, so I thought I would write this.

The Trip Begins

As most of you know I took off for Portland Oregon to see Monday Night Raw, and may I just start off with saying EPIC? It was a long 11-12 hour drive, which most of it was in a storm. The sun would break through every once in a while, but other than that it was cloudy and boring. We drove through the storm and into the night, finally stopping for a nap just about 2 hours away from Portland. We woke up around 5 and pushed on. The fog and clouds wouldn't back off though, so most of the time it was grey. Once in Portland we drove around and explored the city before finally being able to check into our rooms. After a nice little rest, we went back out again. driving by the Rose Garden. That's when it became real for me. I could see the WWE Semi-Trucks that carried the stage, and everything else for the show. I saw some buses. That's when I knew I was just a day away from the greatest show on earth. We walked around a took pictures of the trucks and buses, which are posted on my facebook and twitter account.

When I woke up Monday and looked out the window, the sun was shining and the clouds were rolling away. As soon as we got dressed, enjoyed some good breakfast, we headed towards the Rose Garden again. More buses and trucks had pulled in. It made me even more excited seeing more signs of WWE life.

While we were driving around, I checked Twitter just for the heck of it. (I was checking to see if any wrestlers posted anything about being somewhere in Portland or something like that.) That's when I saw Ted DiBaise tweeting someone about meeting up for a DiBiase Posse. I found out the location and we shot over there. People were already standing/sitting in line at the Rose Garden for the show later, but there was a group that was the DiBiase Posse. We stood there waiting for Ted to show up, getting rather anxious. He tweeted one of the guys there saying he was searching for it, so they thought chanting "DiBiase Posse" would help him locate us. Soon after the tweet was sent, Ted walked around the corner with some fans, which I'm guessing helped him find the meeting spot. Ted had his phone out and was taking video of us as he walked up. The people standing in line for a show rushed over as well. Ted was all smiles and said hey and hi to everyone. He was very nice and polite. It was awesome. As me and my dad went up for a picture he smiled and nodded, replying with. "Guess I should take this toothpick out." We laughed and posed for the picture. After that he paid attention to the other fans. He picked up a little boy and gladly took a picture with him. Which made me smile. Then he was kind enough to let me have another picture with just me and him. I asked him for another pic and he said, "Sure sweetie, where we at?" Meaning where was the camera at. So we posed together and my step-mom took the picture.

I must admit, wrapping my arm around his back felt amazing. I could feel his muscles beneath his shirt. I'm not trying to sound pervy, it's just...I like muscly men. When he had his arm on my shoulder, it was truly a time where I felt like no one could harm me had they tried. After that I borrowed someone's Sharpie and had him sign my phone case, which he thought was cool because it was my Captain America collectors edition. (It's even more priceless now.) It was amazing to meet Ted. He seemed like such a great guy, nice smile, very friendly. Nice to know he'll stop and take time to meet with the fans.

Now it's showtime.

After surviving the line to get T-shirts and programs, we headed for our seats. I was very pleased with where the seats were. It wasn't the press boxes like I had tweeted, but it was where they had media personal sit during some event. There was a giant cement wall behind us, and then more people, so thankfully when the signs and people popped up I could stand on my chair and see just fine without blocking anyone else's view. The show was amazing. The pyro was loud and scared me once, the crowd was fired up, and I was WAY excited. The dark match to kick the show off was Santino vs. Curt Hawkins. With Santino winning. Then they tapped a match for Superstars. Beth Phoenix vs. Alica Fox. Beth won that one. Then came the announcement to get pumped up and get our signs ready because they were going to do a live shot, so we got all fired up. I basically was the only one cheering for Jericho there, but I didn't care. After the Miz vs. Cena match, Miz got up and starting complaining about how he deserved better and demanded someone else come fight him. Triple H then came out, hit the pedigree on Miz, and did the DX Crotch Chop before leaving. The dark main event match was Kane vs. Cena. That's when Kane's pyro scared me. Wasn't ready for that at ALL.

(I'm kinda rushing this because if I could say all I wanted to, your eyes would be dead and rolled out on the floor. So if there's anything else you want to know just let me know.)

After The Show

After the show was over, I was trying to hurry my dad and step-mom along to the car so we could race out to the airport. I knew that would be where we could meet some wrestlers, I just knew it. I asked a security guard where he thought they might go, and he said the Portland Airport because it was the closest. So that's where we went. Thankfully we saw a few other WWE fans standing around, so I knew we must be in the right place. Not even 5 minutes after we got there, I saw Chris Jericho, who signed a couple things then went in like a mad dash toward the gates. My dad chased after him, and I was not far behind him. Seeing I'd probably get no picture, I shouted. "Jericho, can I have a picture with you?!" While staring at his butt, tempted to latch onto his leg to stop him. xD Thankfully I didn't do that, but I had what I am now calling a "Chris Jericho Moment." I was so close, yet so far away. CM Punk was the same way.

After turning around feeling like my heart had been slammed with a hammer, I spotted Mason Ryan and Jerry Lawler. I made my way over to Lawler first, getting a picture with him. He looked so tired, I felt sorry for him. Then I went over to Mason Ryan. Getting a picture and an autograph. And if I may say so, he made me feel like Hornswoggle. xD After we got done with the picture I moved out of the way of the other people wanting pictures and stuff, and that's when I saw Kofi Kingston. I made my way over to him, had him sign my book, and take a picture. I thanked him for letting me take a picture with him, (which I did with every superstar,) I told him about Jericho blowing me off and he said, "Oh yeah, Jericho will blow you off.."

Once Kofi left, we all just stood there watching and waiting for another superstar to come in. People were talking about how Triple H was somewhere in the building. Then they paged John Cena down to Alaskan Airlines. So a few people rushed down there and waited, and waited, and waited. We all thought it was just a fluke to get most of the people out of the way so Cena could get by quickly without being seen. I just about died thinking I was so close, and missed him by seconds. So we stayed there, being the only people standing there. Just as I lost hope, I turned around and saw The Rock walk in. My step-mom talked about how she wanted to meet him all day, and finally she got the chance. He was in a hurry, so we took "walking pictures." Thankfully all 3 of us got one with him before he left. He seemed like a nice guy, just in a hurry. Great smile might I add.

We worked our way back down to where we were originally, and just stood there waiting and watching for the next superstar. I was hoping it would be Cena, but half of me still felt like we missed him already. My heart shattered even more as the minutes ticked by and there was still no sight of Cena. I really wanted to meet him, that's all I really wanted. The show was nice, meeting Jericho would have been nice, but I just really wanted to see Cena. Just as I lost all hope my dad said that there was one. I whirled around, saw it was Cena and rushed over to him like my life depended on it.

"Can I please have a picture with you?" I some how managed to push out in a decent order. It hadn't hit me yet.

"Oh yeah sure, just let me check in first." He said with a smile. So I backed away and let him get to the point where he needed to check in. THEN it hit me. My chest tightened up, my legs grew weak, my heart stopped, and began to shake. I shook like never before. From my toes all the way to my ears. All out of excitement of getting to meet John Cena!!! When he waved me over for a picture, as we waited for my step-mom and dad to get cameras ready, I just blurted out to him...

"Would it be okay if I hugged you?" How the hell I even asked that surprises the hell out of me. I'm afraid to ask my own family simple questions, let alone a celebrity in person!

"Yeah sure, that's fine." He said. We took the picture, and sadly in all my excitement, I never got my hug. Maybe next time though. I also had him sign my book as well. He complimented my shirt. (It was the limited edition dark purple shirt. Only 2,000 were made I think.) When I wrapped my arm around him, it was like the same feeling with Ted, but 10x better. It almost felt like I was standing against a brick wall. I TOTALLY felt like NOTHING bad in this world would happen. Seriously, you can call me weird and creepy, but that's how it felt being next to his huge self.

After my picture was taken, a kid next to me asked if I could take his picture, which I gladly said I would. He handed me his iPhone and I waited until they were ready, then took aim. But soon my shaking from being so excited ruined it. I had to ask someone else to take the picture for them. According to my step-mom, Cena just chuckled, smiled, and shook his head at my trembling. (I wonder how many times he sees that.)

He looked at my shirt, "You know, I've always liked that shirt.." I replied with a shaky 'I know right.' After he signed the book I stepped back and let him meet with other fans. Signing this, and taking this picture and that picture. Kneeling down to take pictures with the couple little kids that were there. It was a wonderful thing. I almost had another heart attack when I realized he hadn't signed my grandma's shirt yet. I rushed over, Sharpie ready.

He pulled his phone out. "I really need to get home you guys.."

I shoved the shirt towards him and bravely said, still shaking, "You gotta sign this for my grandma."

He grabbed the Sharpie and looked at me, "Alright, but I see a lot of these for sale you know.."

"Oh grandma won't be selling it, trust me."

He signed my grandma's shirt, and I was officially on cloud 10,000. It felt so awesome. Words can't be used to describe how amazing it was. My dad got a picture with him as well, and then we left after getting a picture. I was smiling, and still am smiling about it. I met John Cena at my first ever Monday Night Raw. What are the odds? Cena seemed like the coolest out of all of them, (him and Ted tie), he was so nice and patient with everyone. Truly amazing man.

There was a few superstars I wished I had met, but there will be other shows we are going to, and now we know where to wait for them.